Where Did She Go?

Recently my friend Jon passed away after long hard battle with cancer. Since his death I have been questioning myself about how I got to this place. Confused? I know I am.

In the weeks following Jon's death, I have found myself looking at old high school photographs. I was always taking pictures and recently started scrap booking them. As I was looking through a memory book I made myself after high school, I came upon senior my memory wall picture. Dot had taken all the seniors' pictures and then you write your future goals and memories on the card stock with your picture on it. I stared at that picture for quite awhile. My hair was long and red and I weighed about 15 pounds less, but what really caught my attention were my eyes. There was so much hope in them. I wasn't afraid of new experiences back then and was so outgoing maybe even to outgoing cause it bordered on hyper.

So, what happened to that girl that was so full of life and not afraid of anything? What happened to not settling and taking chances? What happened to the social butterfly that blew off school work for her friends? Will she ever come back and more importantly, will I ever be happy again with my life......