A Prayer

A couple of months ago when I was feeling really really low, a friend I met at church sent me this prayer. Since I can not articulate here how low I am feeling right now, I thought I would post this prayer. Maybe someone else out there is feeling like this and maybe it will remind them as well as myself that I am loved by GOD and HE will see me through this.

A PRAYER
Lord, I'm tired. Exhausted.
Sometimes I wonder how I find the strength.
So much to do, so little time and energy.
And always one thing more,nagging at the back of my mind like toothache.
Unwelcome yet hard to ignore.
I buzz around, a frantic flybattering the window pane
until I fall exhausted to the sill.
All noise and movement but so little done.
And in the effort to respond
to all the calls that others make
I find I'm losing touch with you.
The crowds get in between.
The more I do for you
the further off you seem.
A paradox until I hear your voice,
not asking more of me
but telling me to find a breathing space,
a place to rest.
And in the quiet you are there.
No accusations,
and no suggestions that I could do more.
And as we sit together
I being to realize that many of the demands I face
are self-imposed. They're mine.
Born out of ego,and the guilt I feel when I can't cope
comes from my pride and not from you.
Forgive me, Lord...
because I ask more of myself than you do.
And when I'm faced with something
I just can't find the energy to do
give me the honesty to face the fact
that maybe you're not asking it of me.
You made the world,
it wasn't me
and, valued as I am,
it's you who keeps it going.
by Eddie Askew - Cross Purposes